Friday, June 26, 2009

The Lost of True Star: King of Pop Micheal Jackson

Just to share some picture of him.... well i do felt it because i grew up with his song. i think everyone was surprise. Cardiac arrest by his age 50. Micheal Jackson will stay in our heart.....

Micheal Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)R.I.P





p.s am surprise how fast wikipedia update his profile and really i don't mind hearing his voice the whole day. still like his song and passion. Prayers are for the whole Jackson Family especially the kids....

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Crave

wohooo mingling with 2 preggy woman make me had a hard time. Mana Tidaknya the two preggy woman was talking about alot of thing and yet they transfer to me their crave towards thing .... especially Puan Nurul... Puan jujah so far no craving yet... duh...

so after so long Puan Nurul Bully me with her Big apple Post i can't help my self. so I ask my Doctor to drive me there.... geh geh geh Thanks En Doktor because layan my sudden crave for big apple
So we pick some for Ibu as well but can't remember.

These few days change my perception here and there but the most after reading their experience from their blog. the only thing i scared about pregnancy is when the part "nurturing" comes. aiiiyahhh scary....
Macammana pon I pray for their well being......

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Alish's Mocktail: Twist of fate

Disclaimer: Twist of Fate is alish's own mix/recipe

Alish's Mocktail: Twist of Fate

60ml Ginger Ale
30ml Cranberry juice
30ml Red Grape juice
half of lime (1/4 for bathing the glass 1/4 for garnish)

Glass Preparation:
1. squeeze lime to the glass ring/mouth
2. cover the class ring/mouth with a mixture of white sugar with salt
3. Chill Glass in freezer fill with ice

Drink preparation
1. place the 1/4 lime inside the glass
2. slowly pour in Ginger ale
3. pour in both grape and raspberry juice

Don't stir serve immediately.....


Lunch box

lunch box some call it lunch pail or lunch kit or the fancy well known Bento and i call it Food from Heaven.

a simple red and green apple + good grade fragrance rice with Sambal tumis bilis sit side by side with sunny side egg beats all the foods here in my place. while waiting for lunch hour i can't hold my self together. Once open the container it releases the mouth watering smell. may be simple side dish for you guys but the level of satisfaction complete my day





the best part of all this it reminds me of my dad.... each day for several month Walid(dad) and Ibu(Mom) came to my school bring me my lunch box. back then it is quite embarrassing to have parents come over everyday and bring you things to eat and waits until you finish and only then they leave..... but am happy they did that ... i don't remember talking to my dad that long but his action and treats still fresh in my head.

i promise to my self i will make sure my children will bring their lunch from home until they say stop i hate it and it is embarrassing so... there...... schedule for western, Asian and eastern delicacies....

aiyah sudden crave for sanma takikomi gohan

Monday, June 22, 2009

Yuna- Deeper conversation lyrics and youtube vids



Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outer space?
And I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And I'm learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

4x
Deeper Conversation
let me

Monday Morning >_<


while listening to hits.fm morning crew convincing everybody it is Friday and i had a minor headache OTW to work... sigh ... feel really really slow today.... not because of Monday it is more because of my head and perception towards the new environment which totally different from my soul...

what make it worst that i receive a msg and asking for my finance account number with a note : Am clearing it off this month.... aiyah.. now it make things much more heavier.... i hope it will not be a regretful step.... instead of feeling ease it turn to responsible....

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Marie Digby - Feel - Lyrics and Youtube Clip



Feels like I spent all this time talking to walls
Feels like I gotta let go of the way it was before
Are your really there? Are you made of stone?
Am I talking to someone or am I here all alone

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Seems like you're stuck in a daze, slipping away, away
I'm sick of trying to reach you, can't you say what's on your mind
Baby we're losing the race to far behind, behind
Tell me that I'm not the only one who can try, who can fight the wall

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Sometimes the words they don't get through
What really speaks is what you do
Open up, let me inside, just wanna find you

[Chorus]
Are you alive, are you, are you?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Whoa, wake up, are you dead?

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Not Even Close to Professional

to my very surprise i receive a msg today... was asking for "belongings".... to this very extend i was trying to keep up my cool. firstly i am not sure why i need to entertain him.... while he ignoring my colleague and even so calculative towards me and with a bunch of crap and empty promises... Mr Mr Mr.... my oh my... kesian lah this kinda of people... but i see why is this person acted this way... he is so use to used other people and not a strong contender and manipulative brat... yup + not even close to professional... see who insecure now.....not sure how i fall for it... but no more i guess.... setakat keys to a place that have nothing inside... or should i be calculative with all the payment i should receive... dah bagi handicap .. still macam tu..... don't even have the nerve to call ka... btw... since am ignoring the connection with this person n his barua so... it ok... tak call pun tak pe... msg pun tak pe.... no need to entertain anymore... wanna see my rudeness here am i....

the moral of this whole story....
if you know you need a person or anybody to backs you up don't manipulate.. yup going to return the key by post soon... i don't need the key and my dad never teach me to be rude, manipulative and take advantage of other people so there... said it... and you know who you are.... you don't have any right/ not even in the position to contact me... you Ex-young man has a Machiavellianism syndrome... but guess what no matter how good we want to be there is no room for Machiavellianism in our Religion world...know your own sin... think about it... and get over it then scrams off..... so busy with much more important issue..... (Am glad that i don't need repay him... but i sub con to my GOD... the best so far).. A~~~MEN

p.s yup since he is not professional... i use my unprofessional step by posting this post... tu dia.. malas lah....pelik betul.... acted too pandai, further study jauh jauh... but much more childish than i am... teringat balik his suggestion and ideas... think back it was funny... i always kid around but i have my own vision and gold and gawd i believe in my self(self assure haha) ..... Don't judge people just because they kid around and acted like one they might be in disguise... there is this thing called RESPECT... people... hello.....

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Lost: All the love in the world

Receive a msg from a friend last night. boom and realize....... we gain, we hold on to and we lost something so pure and free in this world that we all acknowledge as love. it is either through body language or word it self. the more we unfold it the more terrified we become....

once my dad told me .... the person we love the most is the person who hurt us the most, because of love we easily forgive and forget.

i no longer understand my own marriage theory as i see more and more falling apart around me.
yet i still hold on to the word respect.

2009 has been really a test for me.... i really hope that the second half will be better.... more gain please!!!

my GAIN list
graduate ..... checked
work.............checked
JB(dream)...checked

my Lost List
work()..................checked
Love(DAD)..........checked
Love(Is)...............checked
Love(My Self).....checked
Master Degree....checked
Freedoms............checked
decision making...checked
respect and understanding...checked
JB(dream)...checked
time..............checked

yup there is more for lost actually but due to unforeseen circumstances i bare it and prefer not to put it up there..... i was lucky that i have religion that help me go through with this.... i was lucky that i was protected. i was so afraid after all things that happen around me crumble together with my faith. Yes i am lucky... but as i said there is few things i didn't list down and it is the heaviest so far.

someone close told me recently... if i need him, if i feel down, if i lost some where just look at the moon there will be a bright star next to it... just look at it... remember me and everything will be okay.. so i did try to look for it thou it is lame... i fail to get some sleep recently so i just wanted to try... i did go outside try to find the moon and the brightest star... but i can't find the star.... now it become a habit for me to go outside every night and try to find for it.... funnily i cant find it.... wow i know the star is there but this 3 weeks i can find it... so maybe i should stop......

how ever i wish for the best for my friend and her family. a friend and her husband. me and myself, my ex scandal and ex's haha....... may the force be with you