" The 'not so' taciturn " aLiSh

what the hell i was the only one well verse Kacap terlabik the others master F and S language in the office. YM me what the hell you guys talking about.. erk mite ka-uu kacap telabik yider ro-ang ditak hapam lupak.....

Tuan Haji Ismail was my Godfather. Soft spoken and lovable uncle.

I witness a pleasant view yesterday... thou the house is pack but there is 1 Chinese family was sitting in front of me... the daughter sit next to us... and the family man was sitting (Bersila) quietly in front of me in between of people reciting Sura' Yassin and the bad things was, me and his daughter was smiling... because her dad was like bersungguh-sungguh sitting there while the other Chinese friends as always was waiting outside the house... when the recital is over... he stand up move further in front to see my late uncle face and insisted to meet my aunt in her room..... Aduhai.... it is not wrong to do that but in that pack house while some of the people still reciting near the body.... he was like moving forward through saf (Rows of Muslim performing Solah)" until he able to see Arwah face. and then he suddenly stands up and say "kak som mana kak som" "bagilah saya jumpa kak Som sekejap" and my aunt did when out because she was perfoming Solah a moment ago. while i was grieving but then change to laughing with his daughter.... adui... luckily my mum ignore my stupidity.

but for me... i lost another great godfather which also means i left with 1 more godfather.....

please please i need my uncle and godfather for my wedding :( (IF ELSE)

since am little till am adult i always forget walid's birthday suppose to be on the 30th. Nothing much can be done.... was planing to ask brother to be back home.... but at this time around not be much appropriate.....

i wanna share with you his letter dated on 07-07-07.

Al-Fatehah For Arwah Walid.....

what with this people...... ?

4 days remand order for Aduka Taruna on his defamation case after he report to Kota Bahru balai police......

Well i am not surprise to see such comment anymore..... as in my previous post... am not sure where or in which line did i force

maybe this word make he think that way
"Friends do make sure you friend and all of us/around you to pay our respect for the dismiss."
or Maybe
"Jom Johorian"

i don't understand a lot of things this day... so ... will it be wrong if am suggesting... would it be wrong for me to respect the culture......

so my work place is educational sector..... we receive pop-up from PC agent to wear such and such..... some how i never feel force to do so....

for me it is just like meeting your friend for CNY, getting crazy for new year and merdeka day, getting puttu mayam and curry from neighbor for Deepavali or even having thanks giving dinner with close friend. But for this matter it is paying a respect.

Paying a respect is how we should live in. to make properest, to make peace where we live in

who are we to judge who is sin and who is sinner...

Even a Chinese uncle and the shop owner reminded me on the first day... "Eh mana kamu punya tudung, ni Ribbon nak beli" i just answer ... eh uncle dah confirm ke?..." the he tell me his ribbon all sold out.... told my self what a stupid ignorant i am.... terus jadi budak baik ask my mum where did i put away my pasmina. of course this is not a great example... but am a human..... not some political or religious extremist....

harmony is the best thing i have in my memory... why is it so hard to do so....well

who am i to condemn other people standings and believes

ada yang ikuti jejak Aduka, selamat datang Shahrul Reezwan dan Mohd Amzar

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tulah dia nak buat baik pun salah nak ingatkan pun salah, bezakan what I've post with theirs...

myMetro | 40,000 benci Fasha?

Macam mana tu ?

Firstly she said she was okay with it at least people still acknowledge her existence
secondly she will do something about it. This is what the TABLOID wrote

“Kami masih berbincang dengan pihak pengurusan dan keluarga Fasha mengenai hal ini. Peguam Fasha berkata laporan polis boleh dibuat,” katanya.

haha Laughable

but i am satisfied thou.... the more surprise i found it is from a person who put this in his blog (which is the was removed with a notification - click here to read)

As everyone know our Beloved Sultan Johor Almutawakkil Alallah Sultan Iskandar Ibni Almarhum Sultan Ismail passed away yesterday at 7.15PM

I would like to express my sadness by Mourning with Johorian.
Jom Johorian
if you still can go for the burial service
guys get your White ribbon songkok, and girls fully white attire and visit the Mahmoodiah Royal Mausoleum...

The others.... for 7 consecutive day...
Guys:
(Muslim)- wear a songkok with with ribbon attach
(Non-Muslim) - Tree Inch black Ribbon or cloth on you left arm

Girls:
(Muslim and liberal/sporting non Muslim) White head scarf/selendang/tudung
(non-Muslim) - black ribbon on your left arm

Friends do make sure you friend and all of us/around you to pay our respect for the dismise.

p.s I would love to extend my condolences to Her Royal Highness Sultanah Zanariah and Family on the dismiss of His Royal Highness The Sultan Johor

Jangan jadi saya - only after lunch I remember I have not yet fix the flag... but now sudah.... Ampun esok beli bendera baru... tau uzur dah... sigh........

Call it pasar tani, call it pasar pagi but i cant resist the temptation to accompany my colleague for a stroll there.... the best thing about this i bought fresh ikan kurau masin... sorry no picture taken since no phone with me... but this other two item i paksa my Junior cum practical student (Diana) to lend me (yup forcefully *wink*).........

i tot it is Jalapeno but thru observation the fruit is standing from the stem ... but the smell is rather similar to bell pepper family. (Had it for lunch... the smell the texture is to0 mild for the famous cili padi family)

huhu thou i fail to become a scientist but still my prediction is this chili is Capsicum Annum and Capsicum frutescens mix breed... haha.... -the spiciness is also in between of both family




And Nasi Ambeng... i never in favor of nasi ambeng... but since they prepare basic lauk and you can add your main course... i take more lauk than my limit... huhu should snap the pic... i finish it all hahah

So happy to meet Adam + Nurul. after planning for such a long time ... congrats Nurul + taufiq...

P.s My HP can't be use anymore do contact me via gmail/googlewave ok.... yup i know i want to cuti from HP this week but seems like the HP can't take it she decided to commit suicide in coffee mug yesterday Amen~

I am down... and in a mess....

will not use all of my number anymore starting next week.... living life without phone!

do contact me via my Googlewave, Gmail and FB....

will update if i change my mind....

No Perm or Hairstyle post will be publish by me. Ibu Masuk Hospital. There . not sure how to explain she was okay the whole night and suddenly at 4 am she in pain. Rush to Emergency room and how she is still need to be inspect.... Help me pray y'all

To Jay: My Dearest friend congrats and lastly Adib is yours... i will always pray for you and Adib... sorry i can't attend... do take care

Love,
alish

i don't care what will happen i will do something about my hair this weekend and i still don't know which one to pick care to help?

Should i Perm?

cut it short like this
or keep it long but cut to style
did try this but hampeh :P

http://www.instyle.com/instyle/makeover/?action=showMakeover&tab=hair&hairId=1142

what should i do.... which one suits me better

juju tambah yg ni

I really hate to read the news... I am not sure how to explain or comment on the burning church event...

http://in.reuters.com/article/worldNews/idINIndia-45233720100108

http://www.straitstimes.com/BreakingNews/SEAsia/Story/STIStory_474846.html

http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5iXTElj3miGieEBuBdQ1alAqX3jWA

I didn't prepare anything for my lunch starting new year..... and i think because of that i gain my weight.... just to share with you guys some of my lunch (which i manage to snap the pix before the lunch box emptied).. i make afford so it will be enough for breakfast and lunch

too busy these days i dont even notice the day almost end.... wish me luck........ banyaknya kerja

The official video for Michael Jackson's posthumous single, This Is It, has been released!

why only next year ? (read: Halal news on bernama)...
first and for most ... for all Malaysia who didn't know this... Jakim did put up a website for us to check the status of product we bought on market... (Jakim Halal website-Check status using Product Barcode, Description or company name) ... even you can SMS

my issue here why next year... why not immediately (well this issue has been going on since years ago.... how many "Next year" should i follow until it will be implement)
i gave you the link to the website because i have been consistently check out the site and
it was there since i was first told by a friend 3 years ago... but the database never expand and i cant see any update available. Close but no Cigar i must say... i hope i don't have to put up with "next year" on the next year December newspaper.

Big dream happen when the engine run smoothly... Don't just Bark at the tree... Its important for the people it is important for the dream and it is important for our economy....

Kinda lost in explanation... i never expected there will be another lost this year....
But Brittany Murphy died early yesterday at age 32 from cardiac arrest... she was found unconscious in the shower by her mother...
i hope there will be no foul play cases... LAPD is doing autopsy on her thou her husband doesn't want any autopsy done to her..... hope to hear more development on this story... well
i do love Brittany Murphy .... well despite i hate her in uptown girl (the movie make her look too dumb) but hell she such a good singer and actress ... RIP Brit

The picture on the right look much much warmer than where i am right now.....

I receive a questionnaire to be answer by a post grad student in UPM and realize that I am now the only person here feeling it.... i decide to stop complain! nothing can be done as am the ugly duckling here.....

while

2+ month ago I decide to stop sharing anything within the cult circle... after learning that

"you just wasting your time to tell the truth which at the end the story will be twist and spread across the globe"...... nope i don't think any PHD involve...but PROUD will be much suitable. ..

am not enjoying this more and more... well I choose to be the freak here...

I stop meeting old friends more and more and even avoid them ..... for me if you are the only one trying to work things out while their mind and mouth still stick to 17 Years old head than avoiding them will be better... no this doesn't apply to everyone.. some people who I think worth to work it out then no invitation needed I will come to you

am not feeling well today.... Heavy headache after my nap, feeling temperature cold which remind me of that cold the hearted cult....

Breaking the news: If you aren't invited to my wedding (past tense, future tense and present tense)..... this note will make you understand why...

Hahaha i was so happy today... well i check my blog chatbox and i saw a comment from Ridwan.. nothing to expect at first but i follow his link... and i found this in his blog http://www.rappang.com/ (embed is a ceramah in Bahasa bugis)

Shock 1:
5.00 Am i heard a loud sound through my bedroom wall. I rush out and see Ibu lying on the floor... did ask her to go to clinic but she refuse.... please suggest me what to do in this kind of event... am shock and i don't know what to do... it is strange when the only think i can think at that moment is nothing... call her just now... she said that she feel less pain now.... still i am confuse what to do......

and ..... Shock 2:

hurm I told hana strange things today... I miss my daughter... yup, 2 of them and then she ask "kak alish ada anak ke" well I almost forgot... yup it is not mine... but i have been dreaming about them this few days... rindunya tak jumpa diaorg... sigh.... would it be weird if i say i wanted to have kids badly(now days).... must be strange for people who know me since I've been crapping how much i hate kids.... especially the one who cant stop cry.......

ah hell, what the hell i've been thinking this days...


Shock 3: ... have you ever feel like slapping on someone face?... well i hate to say this...

"know your own shoe la wei..."

just imagine... someone i know that she doesnt have this thing around her life. well she put up this mengada ngada face ....

she use or do things with these stuff.... but guess what ...

it is not her's!

but she acted like she cant live with out it.... and she own it and don't even care if other people need their space too.... what a pathetic....
well good thing i have it long before. Jadi saya tak mengada ngada macam tu ....

/me cukup pakai kancil at least ada dan boleh bawa kereta dengan "baik". ko pakai org len punya tak payahlah nak belagak macam menatang tu ko yg punya... come on... pelik orang datang dari kampung yg dekat dengan bandar pun macam ni.... ada org tu ada kereta tak boleh bawak tak belagak pun! kereta mahal lagi!

Shock 4: Why people keep accusing others? i don't care if it is the truth... but what if it is not? am not hurt but i am disappointed

Shock 5: I think people never or better to say refuse to see it in bigger picture that's why they pro to one side! ..... well i do my owh research each time so i can smash back the steam potato... steam potato is my own idea of people who absorb everything and process it as it's own with out 1. listening to other point of view. 2 doing some research .... owh people mind set... seriously i hate to read newspaper these days... yup i don't read tabloid... they exaggerate everything!

Disclaimer: Am not activist nor do I being supportive, and I am not going to discriminate... But i just hate that words

Oh these two phone sangat gatal sekali..... 2 phone with different gatal.... i just check my SE and it is lock and then i look again... "insufficient balance" yup!, she when out browsing game by herself.... and my M..... miss M here thinks that it is funny to call Dr.Shukor (one of my lecturer back in UTM)by herself(not once but dozens of times)... enough with the event i was screaming in SKK hallway because she sms Dr. shukor by herself using the quick template.... tak dan dah nak malu...

i manage to save my self few event.. and today i have to delete the number (well i bet he change his phone number already but i didn't check but i guess its okay... i will be so proud now if she can dial the number ......crazy....) memang nak kena hempuk dengan aku dua ni langgarkan antenna dua dua baru tau! and i tot i was crazy .... nevertheless might be because am the owner of these two bright phones..... good thing am using prepaid...

I wanted to share something around my life this week and i think you should know it too
Debt:

A very dear friend of mine Pass away few days ago (Al-fatehah) from a car accident.... how ever 3 of them survive...... why i wanna touch this matter? hurm so we used to work for a company who fail to pay us our salary (4 of us excluding the Barua).

the owner of "Virtual Space Center SDN BHD" and his BARUA wan owe one of my friend who survive the accident. I don't really care if it was like under $1000 but you should know the amount..guys i think you should really consider paying him back his money.... he might or might not need the money... but a dept is a dept.... what if he didn't survive....

just as reminder for all of us, yes including me.... how religiously inept we might be but don't pretend like nothing else matter except for yourself and your life stop using others generosity (When you in need you begged him but when it is time to payback you ignore him... almost a year now! stop hiding! )...

you know why i publish your name.... because this is to much .... upon my dept i let it passed!... but someone is in need...... For others information i hope somebody do google this name and find out about the "douche" and should learn from us.... he just using you! (As i say people now days even if he do have A.Prof in front of their name they might be just as douche as Eric Cartman! ) .... i cant stop remembering his face when he show us how opportunist he is.... (Saw a lot of UTM pc in the office last time... guess la how he get it! )

Trust: "Don't trust people who don't want to trust you" By alish :) am too generous and surprisingly forgiving these days and this is just a reminder for me to start being a hard ass! except for the issue above am being to soft these days....

Words: Funnily some people who claim that they can create a better country curse for others misfortune.... guys cammon we don't do that.... "Sedara se-agama ok!"

"If you once forfeit the confidence of your fellow citizens, you can never regain their respect and esteem. It is true that you may fool all of the people some of the time; you can even fool some of the people all of the time; but you can't fool all of the people all of the time. "By Abraham Lincoln

Hurm i plan to start a blog on "Bugist language".. but some how there is some blog existed one of it is cgabeng bahasa bugis but i was lucky that he actually copy paste from others... but i find the language do mix with local culture... as for Johorian Bugis.... it is blend with a few local word... and some of my friend in sabah speaks with a mixture of Filipinos .... but not to far from makassar and sulawesi.... I do hope I can compile everything soon yup but of coz just the language and food maybe.......

Can be more frustrating i check like few local cinema for this movie... The Blind Side not even in the list in coming soon tab @ GSC nope not in TGV , dan cinema.com.my
1 movie suppose to release this month...
well the one i waited for... (definitely not new moon)
but

The Blind Side
well yup i know... but i sort of going for this kinda movie... watch the teaser here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYC1ulLHD6Y

besides Caroline


was release in February, 2009
i was hoping it will be available here just that i hate to Pirate it if not necessary.... but sometime i just opt for watching online no matter how bad it is

looking back this year i only watch few movie in local cinema and end up watching online for the one that i have been waiting for... sigh.. lastly pergi movie let people decide because none of it my option(kecuali inkheart-memang nak tgk) and lastly Bord of it... sigh

Sigh ... hurm made a mistake today.... firstly am not in a very good mood.... fierce to be exact... i know EMO but hell yeah i am fierce if people keep pushing me to admit something that i didn't do for Gawd sake.

and mum never made it easier... than i piss someone else (which reminding things from the pass)

and then yup back to me.... how silly we think we cant forget the most important things. The think that we plan with hopes and dreams... by the time we achieve it we have to let go and forget about it.... am still piss about it... i mean me... what a mistake... biggest mistake in my life..... and worst.... it is what am not suppose to do..... i remember that day... darkest day in my life.... ending with nightmare horror and a fight which i didn't trigger... man... why life is such a drama...

Last Weekend: 7+8Nov and My Breakfast Pack: Meeting Ayin, Masak lemak Turi+ Ketam, Steam Senangin and the breakfast pack: Sandwich and Kebab.

Hurm last week doesn't go as accordingly, so after a while i decide to meet Ayin... at first the journey was suppose to be on saturday but some misunderstanding because of me and confuse Ayin (Aih sorry Ayin) we finally decide to meet on Saturday(But I meet Fara instead- thanks far for inviting me to your house.... thou I didn't share much about me but that day is about you... sangat gembira OK)... back to meeting Ayin in Melaka : I segan to meet her since i gain extra weight ..... but then jumpa jugak. nothing much to share from this trip.... kecuali dapat ticket... meet the horses, makan in cafe... the only thing we do chat next to the pool..... uh i wish....now dah masuk kerja letih gila no go for relax

And my beloved bro was home so he buy some crab and as always the menu is chilly crab but + Masak lemak Turi + Ketam


SO for breakfast i decide to pack a nice kebab for the kids in SMC....... Chicken kebab with garlic sauce .. tomorrow will do more since i wanna finish up the tortilla and wanted to make a fresh one......
+


Off track story sangat gembira my salad supply is saved......

Function to Bad Rate Buyer Temporary Taken Out by Lelong.com.my .... do you guys agree on it i don't think so...2 of item i buy the seller was so rude.... they mislead the buyer and i dont want lelong to end-up having group of seller who mislead- well as we know lowyatt also provide selling and buying but LOWYATT also are well know as the most dangerous place to shop... removelah.... remove (click the pix below to read the reason-BULLSHITZ)
for me if the seller didn't fucup people will not put up bad comment... so buyer just simply want a justice.... I not yet "bad comment" people thouthe item I bought on the promotion page clearly post up RED but when the item arrive it was totally orange and a bright one..... or the item stated it came in with software but nah i google pun tak dapat.... and the person didnt reply... i have 20 more days before rating session ended but will see lah ... how lelong wanna overcome it.... i still think it is a stupid step. SANGAT BODOH OK

BO omg can't stands it... okay i know you (who ever you are) strong religious believer but hello BO just doesn't goes with our religion come on... remember we must keep our self clean.... nope it is not what you think yes alcohol is a sin but that is when we consume excessively which later cause nausea and hangover+ anything that going to leave major effect to your body is sinful. but alcohol contain in deodorant and antiperspirant is so little beside no major effect in your body.... and fatwa in Malaysia categorize this product as mubah/harus so why not just use it.....

okay so you still forbid alcohol in you life why don't you use natural way to deodorize ur self... follow this step:

Bath: bathe with lemon and bicarbonate soda or vinegar or try apple cider vinegar + mix in essential oil or rose water. recommended 3 times a day.

after bath: mix bicarbonate soda with body talcum and smear it to your armpit or apple cider vinegar. or some corn starch to make it extra dry.....

clothing: always dry your body well and wear fresh clothing each time... wipe with fresh set of towel... wash your towel like 2-3days once....

Drink: fresh water, no coke, no Pepsi, no teh-O no anything else but H2O

Food:
Avoid: strong flavored food like curry, onion, egg, cocoa
try: high in zinc food... clam, oyster, dark leaf green vegetable like spinach

that's just it ..... bukan susah sangat pon nak senangkan org sekeliling kan

p.s
for those who okay with alcohol try bathing and use deodorant before you sleep... it make all the different for people who didn't do this everyday... try to use spray type of deodorant if you love walking and sport.... as you may spray until it cover the whole body....

sigh what a weekend: Kon labor & Delivery, caramel apple, a very sweet breakfast, a repetitive dinner menu(Chilly crab and lamb chop) and my pack breakfast almost went wrong + Ferrero Rondnoir

Disclaimer: You are about to watch a miracle+disgusting(For some people) Vids But its okay wash it with my food post aha.. sorry people.... but really wanna share....

Saturday subuh i was annoyed by my cat she scratching my face my hand and my back...... at first i was piss.... it was 5.30 in the morning... okaylah bangun since Azan subuh calling me....
wash my face and brush my teeth and there she goes again ... she called me and walk half way..... since i didn't follow her she repeat the same step until i finish brushing my teeth and get my Wudu' done.... ok i follow you ... she is now inside the box.... i keep deceiving her because i was up to something... alamak boleh kentut pulak... went to the loo again just to see Kon repeating her steps before..... and there was something on her bottom and it was ..... small kitten leg.... OMG OMG OMG i scream IBU.......... my mum deceive me pulak since i complain to her in the kitchen kon was bugging me since 3AM man so basically she just doesn't want to witness it.....
i grab my phone and try to capture mia first experience to assist my cat delivering her baby.... man it was scary and i cried.... 1. she panic 2.i panic 3. my carpet 4. few more to go...... thank God i read the guide the night before... since this is her first experience she was as clueless as i am..... i follow the step what to do first and what to do if she didn't eat the placenta and cord....

after the painful to watch session..... i continue with what i suppose to do... and amazing 1 hour the kitten is completely dry and the best Alive.. all of them..... this is her first one hour milking pix


anyway... since now its me and my collegue cafeworld fever..... i am so wanted to try all the recipe inside the game...... almost all blog and web publish a pretty same recipe which require kraft caramel cube well as you know not ever going to be available in my kampung so i google how to produce the cube pulak... adeh what a pain in the A

before that you need to chill the apple and pat dry only before coating the apple...



jeng jeng jeng 2 normal caramel apple 2 espresso caramel coating .... improvise biasa la... oklah not perfect but edible (not sure not up to my taste but my collegue seem to like it beside.... they say it taste like cadbury choclair)... so that is my Sunday morning
owh almost forget i prepare my breakfast before start the caramel apple process with a


prepare the toast batter.... 1 egg 1 part of milk and 2 teaspoon of vanilla essence.... fry it and try to remove it sogginess with kitchen towel dont pat dry but flip it on a clean kitchen towel....

after the disogginess(woah suka suka buat new word) the bread coat it with same part of Castor and icing sugar....... best serve with melted dark choco or home made without cooking strawberry jem (blend je strawberry with a little bit sugar) fresh and sexy.......
p.s recall it now..... something like powdered french toast in cafe world kan hahahha


while up to today yes to...... having a repetitive dinner menu..... dried rub lamb chop for me and chilly crab for Ibu

i prepared egg sandwich filling sekali no bread ahhhhhhhhhhhh.... what to do... cant keep it ... can't waste it but i was lucky ada sebiji telur lagi..... crack it... + salt +water+ flour.... make a crêpes out of it and bungkus all with the salad leaves.... and wallah surprise it was edible and ok lah me and my colleague didn't went out for breakfast that day...

huhu what a tiring weekend, i was cooking Mutton Curry by the time i notice there is some maize in the fridge. hurm and remember it almost a week ago when i bought. initially i just want to BBQ it but then since there is some left over coconut milk i decide to do pengat instead and by that time Doria Arrive.

but to my stupidity i cant think of activity for her :) SORRY DORIA
sigh....that is for saturday and
last night after those tired travelling to Kahang for
a friend wedding and arrive home somewhere around 3pm and drench in rain my uncle arrive home
(My Dad elder brother and younger brother)
they arrive after performing tahlil at my aunt house






Owh this is my dad younger brother... sporting i must say but i really had a hard time to talk to him... maybe am not used to meet him... but i know he such a sporting uncle
huhu and i spoiled alot of food in Cafe world... Rugi...rugi...rugi :(

Sigh.... How to stop your cat from drinkin from fishbowl.... eiiii Naughty cat.......

caugh redhanded...

Hi my name is KON you may call me TOT.... Basically i love to drink from my owners fishbowl..... Play the vids haha :P

Since today i didn't cook for my lunch box so terpaksa lunch out today... but its okay. so what is my brunch menu if i did prepare

use the egg slicer to slice the egg nicely....
and dice the tomato... put everything in a bowl + mayonnaise. combine everything and wallah your sandwich is ready... and yes spread it to bread of your choices.... add lettuce and green salad in between and i promise you, you will be much more energetic after the meal


Disclaimer: Thanks to Atikah for the recipe but i guess i change how i do it... but the ingredient remain the same lah... punya malas wanna check FB tulah Arab mudah lupa sorang nih!

1. chop Coriander, Asian celery
2. dice the tomato
3. a small can or tomato puree
4. red and green chili pepper

5. Dice Yellow onion
6. minced beef
7. Malaysian soup mix powder
8. minced garlic



I start off with Frying the minced beef with minced garlic


after a while i stir in the soup powder, dice onion, coriander and celery until soften.
pour in canned tomato puree. and taste it. balance it to your liking and at the end i stir in the dice tomato (i prefer the tomato to be a little bit raw)


Smear it in the baking dish and crack up the egg.... i make a hole to fix the egg but normally you just crack it on top of the prepared dish. before you start baking sprinkle some red and green pepper + coriander and celery leaf. bake it.

dig in with white bread... haha best i tell you..... tukar sikit make it lasagna......

Source & copy from: http://www.awam.org.my/sexualh.html

What is sexual harassment?

Sexual harassment is one of the most common forms of Violence Against Women. Sexual harassment is defined as receiving any unwanted conduct of a sexual nature including sexual comments, fondling, lewd gestures, jokes, emails, smses, pornographic pictures, coercion and more.

Women are sexually harassed habitually in public and especially at the workplace. In the workplace, sexual harassment is seldom recognized or linked to the broader issue of Violence against Women and discrimination.

Fast facts :

• A 2002 study conducted by AWAM and Women’s Development Collective (WDC) found that 35% of respondents in Malaysia had experienced one or more forms of sexual harassment.
• Sexual harassment consists of a wide range of behaviors and actions, most common of these are verbal forms of harassment such as jokes, obscene language and suggestive remarks. Many consider these ‘harmless’ and victims are often accused of over-reacting.
• Studies show that survivors of sexual harassment are more likely to be in the lower rungs of the company i.e. in subordinate positions.
• Studies show that survivors are mostly likely to not take any action due to fear of reprisal.
• There is currently no Malaysian law criminalizing sexual harassment. There is only a Code of Practice on the Prevention and Eradication of Sexual Harassment in the Workplace, launched in 1999 by the Ministry of Human Resources.
• Legal action can be taken under other provisions in the Penal Code, Employment Act 1955, and the Industrial Relations Act 1967.
• Sexual harassment can be very traumatizing for women resulting in emotional stress, low productivity and damaged self-esteem.

What to do if you have been or are being sexually harassed?

• Tell the harasser that you don’t like his actions and that you want him to stop.
• If the harassment continues, tell your Human Resources department or your union representative.
• Keep all evidence of the harassment for e.g. emails, smses etc.
• Keep a written account of the harassment including date, time, the harasser’s name and how the incident(s) happened.
• If no action is taken or there is no one you can report this to within your organisation or company, you may lodge a report with the Labour Department or the police.
• Tell a trusted colleague who can give you emotional support.
• Call us or a women’s NGO for help and guidance.

Sexual Harassment campaigns:

Together with the Joint Action Group for Gender Equality (JAG) AWAM campaigns for the enactment of a Sexual Harassment Act.

We were only one of two NGOs on the government’s Technical Working Committee that produced the Code of Practice on the Prevention and Eradication of Sexual Harassment in the in the Workplace that was introduced in 1999. The Code has been an important addition to anti-sexual harassment efforts in this country but is insufficient particularly since it is not compulsory for private sector entities to implement it.

In 2001, AWAM supported a petition drive coordinated by the Women’s Centre for Change which received 12,000 signatures – including from more then 60 organisations – backing this legislation. Lobbying work for the enactment of the Sexual Harassment Act is still in progress as we seek for adequate, timely and effective redress mechanisms for victims, and for the promotion of a healthy and respectful working environment.

being caught in too emotional state these days...tau kenapa... how it occurred the best word describe "no one to be trusted" ..... said it and can't be retract.... the worst part is when we happy for someone else but they just not in the same phase as us.....

Well someone always tell me that we are jive together but the fact is 'we didn't belong with each other'.... happy together but not own each other... so far indeed the only person who lifted me up these days....


am now counting days.... to do more sacrifices... giving my heart out with a bunch of hope for me and my mum.... it's to late to back up.... i am getting tired of pretenders...... friends... families ... lovers.... and some how i still running but on pretty low battery here.....

saw a friend.... who is not even suitable to claim how bad life is when i am on that spot further down below... keep claiming the world is unfair... then what about me?

i never said i didn't pretend... actually am getting tired of pretending... am the man around the house am the person to lean on .. i will not cry and always smile until my stupid aunt think i worst less child.... so i need to meraung if i feel sad? i don't think so...... i promise my self not to tell directly to anyone anymore... just blog it away .... as i complain to TM i better paint the canvas rather that talking to anyone of them...

aku Redha......

sebab aku yg jalani hidup mengikut ketentuan :)

p.s remind me of a Korean movie Miracle Of Giving Fool

Seriously i am so piss with Human with hundred bunch ill intentions in their heart. After my dad pass away a lot of things happen.... and yes what a weekend. how should i start the story telling... am still tired of yesterday....

went out with mum and comeback with a cloud of thick smoke fog....

we thought the building is on fire
the neighbour call the fire department (Thanks for that)

Me and my mum arrive at the scene ... and its a false alarm

the building was not on fire

but a drug addict burn the cable he took from the building (in picture billow is the wire that still warm and red in color) and yes he burns it inside the building
We didn't see that one coming. I called for police. but one old neighbour come to the crime scene (Jahat nya aku thinks he actually protecting the suspect). me and my mum just came in the place quietly so he didn't ran away this pakcik start questioning. the police arrive. he ran i ran after him and he lost. the neighbour outside the fence just look thou i shout to block the suspect (What a typical Malaysian- yup there an accident why don't we slow down and look at it.. no we should not help)....aku perempuan ok i chase the fella you are a bunch of 30 guys(men but not gentleman) in front of the crime scene help to blocklah but no... and thanks for that the suspect just run away since i stuck when trying to follow his path through the fence he cut.....

only than 3 large fire truck arrive (Thanks Encik bomba ye ramai)
and police follow me around the area

and the IO arrived (Investigation officer)... i show them the last place i saw the suspect at... an the tools he leftafter the fire department confirm the area for fire. the police block all road around and suddenly IO's without uniform coming in from no where.... and i followed them around all possible place for his hide out. and talk with the IO until the sun just suddenly set. the IO back to their base (which i still confuse where they park their vehicle)

kejap kejap off track story: Tuan datang dari mana? jawapan .... Magik.....

and went to the police station for reporting the event


after a long 2 times report.... i followed the sergeant major and the inspector back to the crime scene. they pick up the tools back to the office
and the things the suspect burn

plus calculating the damage to the building, the things that teh suspect take -such as TV lah, decoration brass lah.... the IO believe it is from the same person in that week since he even bring his own ladder to do the job. and My mum arrived home after went out with friend who support her shock. i finish the report only at 23.oo. its tiring... and exciting thou :) i always wanted to join a force... but hey i experience new things and better things that day... wohooooo


Disclaimer: a lot of things happen.. even there is some claimed educated person who ugut my parents.... after my dad pass away they keep coming..... without respect to the old people... my dad should break our ties... even the pass away Dato's with their grandsons plus 3 times cousin should start learn and be ashamed of their act... thou this even might not have anything to do with them.... even i never claim anything that my dad has been working on.... you guys yang never hands on tak malu ke? ...... Atuk nenek defence for our Independent and gathered fund to help our people. you guys finish your ancestor estate... now you hunting on Rakyats..... pelik manusia ni.... kerja tempat bagus bagus, nak kata mix blood with PHD people but not at all, tapi buta hati......

Congtratssss to ayu she is now official upgraded from Ms to Mrs hahaha... so sorry i can't stay long and don't even had anything at her wedding... but yeah i went to 2 other weddings and can't do much kecuali datang with pressie and in messy looks.... congrats may you live happily ever after :P

Disclaimer:
Congrats to fara too... she is now officially kena chop dengan org :P

Untuk Maklumat atas kemarahan saya khas untuk Telekom Malaysia...

uih marah betul.... i think it is so stupid to do that for troubleshooting... had the same thing for 3 times and this time memang marah betul... i went through the same F***ing things for 3 times and at the end the way they handle it macam tu juga.... waste of time and 100X bullsh**z dah lah even complain form is not working buduh punyanya tmnet. I tot Customer service careline people went thru training first... lastly baru nak cakap em telefon malam jelah... was like what? buduh buduh buduh....

Damn.... my head cant stop ringing.... uh am damn tired .. no super super tired this raya.... Fatigue ... hurm my remedy just sleep the whole day.... am working today but my head stuck to yesterday...

stop it already... enough is enough... to my stupidity i tot when i decide to gave up everything that i used to have i will gain better things in my life... but no.... this year just simply frustrating and disappointing....
turn left or right ... no more other option...

i hate myself today more then when i still have that stupid yours truly blog... 2009 just not the year for me.... i might turn psycho in few days.

urgh and one more thing.... i just don't want to talk about my relationship... because there is none... and no am not getting marry marry any sooner......

come on guys... no more quality guys around ka?humpph..... watch Ugly truth yesterday... all i can say is "Ya Right, bla bla bla"

i officially being abuse mentally this raya.... Just stop asking .... am tired and it's almost my birthday and i am not HAPPY at all this year.... please..... give me some light here..... i keep stumble and didn't notice the big wall...

yup P.S 22 Chorus is my new addiction... you hafta check the out so sweet.... they cover song from Tori Amos to even lady gaga....... here i embed my fav vids from them but basically just youtube P.S 22 you will serve with tons of result... you can visit them here(Blog) ...visit the blog till the end of page you will see their list of work... so here some sneak peek

I hate take out food i think close friends and families know this already (Must be tired hearing am complaining take out food... not worth buying... take out for pemalas and well unless fast food that you cant cook it yourself) so its week end and guess for buka puasa... we need something extraordinary

with the help of my 4th brother we made french ice cream... yup the only difference is the egg yolk..... so the end product is similar to Gelato...




For this dessert all you need is Chocolate and Banana..... you can use any chocolate... preferred dark choco ok

yes! i love Sony Ericsson but why i prefer to use Motorola instead. yup so i miss my motorola.. planning to buy V9 but... nvm next time maybe

1. privacy

believe it of not the only phone able to lock the file we choose.... yes not keypad lock not phone lock....
Example: multimedia folder > so we can enable others to play and view music list but we can lock video and picture..... or msg... so you phone don't actually lock. others still to use it but not nearing some part that really crucial ...we can secure it... yes we can




2. Sleek design
okay i love super super slim phone okay.. especially flip phone... come in various fancy color OK.....

With the famous aluminium case
so wanita ganas like me should use aluminum case... both HP buruk v3i and L6 jatuh entah how many times but 3 and 5 year survive until was recently stolen.....

3. The Charger/ Data Cable
yes the USB Firewire is also your charger... you can sync, transfer data while you charge your phone... beside you can share your car travelling charger with your iphone or ipod.... uh really help alot...... big time ok... besides i know Nokia and Sony come out with this USB charger but you have to buy it separately ... while i just curi my external hardisk USB to charge my phone... no my battery still ok... ya... (while nokia and sony user start to complain about their specially bought USB Charger)... owh + the charger light help me a lot to

4. keypad
the aluminium keypad allows me to key in word easily... alamak Sony just making my life slow .. sigh... the alphabet changes very slow... really slow.. i hate it..... well making my life hard abandoning road rules.

5. Setting up ring tone
do you know that Motorola allows you to set 1 ringtone for the person or group.... yes other phone can do that too but hey... for sms and call tones completely the same for the group or the person.. so i can neglect (not totaly- sengaja lambat angkat atau kejar nak baca msg) unimportant contact :)



So the top 5 why i love Sony

1. Camera
yup even my dream newly release Motorola ROKR still stuck with 2.oMP cams.... Diff from sony which now came in with 10++MP

2. Note
two things why i love the note function...
firstly it may become your wall paper.... which means it can help you to memorize things while on the go with out hafta check in the folder..tengok jam see the note.. haha best..
Secondly
yup the note can be share using blue tooth.... yup i am cheap skate... but to mengumpat ni dewan kuliah yg besar really helpful without spending on it ok....

3. Organizer function.. you don't really need smart phone if you have this.. unless you are heavy document reader....

4. setting up your phone
Sony some how really user friendly unlike Motorola..... you hafta go folder beyond folder inside a folder... so there.....

5. fancy theme
yup the most easy to find theme on net.....

well while some of us busy waiting for the premier of toy story i went out for gift frenzzy around Batu Pahat...

yup i spotted some place which i already recognize but at the end... the search was fail..... sigh how can Ex-ICXers fail her search while working in the field a year... so i was frustrated .. i think my luck will be great if we got a chance to go Danga Bay in JB instead... 1 stop for everything now days... well last time for me, to find gift for friend before they go back to their respective country...

Arrive home cook for breakfast and solat... remember i had this 3 box of gift but still i have no idea what to give away..... (i should give my daughters all the gift i get-soon) anyway.... and come to my surprise there was 2 more box behind all the boxes.... 1 gift from my dad and 1 more my raya + birthday card.... reading all those card i receive from schooling days remind me of how many friend who turn to "Friend". owh i love all those card..... but the most is from Fara and 1 card that inspire me to DIY for my dad is from Elly's ... the reflexion

today i realize i had tons of key chain and each one of them was given by my dad... places that he went to... Cameron highland to even Ipoh...... one card catch my eyes.....

embedded to the card

i am waiting for a falling star
so that i can make a wish
to be with you forever

and continues with hand writing
My dad never fail to sent me one each year.... sometime there will be 2 card arrive in my mail box.... i guess he couldn't make his mind which one would be suitable for me....

this year... Raya which also My birthday..... will definitely different as he leave us and stay in a better place... i do believe that... rest and happy there.....world without sins ...... i still remember the day he Passed Away.... with proud in my heart, me and my brothers stayed calm and compose to make sure we able to manage the situation. the first thing i said to him after i hugged and kiss him is "I tot you promise to Nikah me first yourself". i can't stop laughing remembering how stupid i am to whisper that to him on the hospital bed.... but we never know when Allah decide to take him away..... and i was so piss at my brother on the 4th day after he open all my Ferrari miniature car (Which was a gift from my dad 3 years different colour each year although i tell him so many times my dream car is Fairlady but he seems to love Ferrari anyway) and give away to my nieces..... but am okay now .. i found it back...... i don't know why i post this ... just to sudden.... to tell the truth my mind still set that he is still in ICU or watching TV with his favorite show wonder pet somehow..... ???? Weird....

So cute coming from a new friend... Rasa macam pergi ke Rehab gitu....

well talking about this... secret... woah i have a very long list for that....

won't keep it longer i think....

maybe this Eid i will tell Ibu my real health situation so to others (close friend and family of course)

yup so i tweet i skip my last medical appointment...

just nak berhenti makan ubat yang sangat banyak hari hari dan memang dah tak larat...

just wish me luck in all aspect..... maybe i should just forget about some other things in my life so i will protect people who are close to me

hey guyssssss.... i don't think this time i misplace my phone. try to contact me via my maxis number instead... hilang and don't know where..... if i got new phone and celcome number i will text you guys ok :)

have a nice day....

yet another contribution to my lost list this year..... but good-lah...

why the best phone always hilang first?

1. Queen of Langkasuka
My short comment: According to a resource claim to be the living descendant, this is a real story..... about southern community of Thailand which was actually the REAL royal family-> well For Siam.

The movie was firstly named as Queen of Pattani but because of some issue(in Thailand) they had to change to Queen of langkasuka... was not openly advertise in our theater due to Gov restriction(Because of its relation to history of Malaysia)... but do have fun... the movie claim to be some sort of the Pirate of Caribbean Asia or something..... Try not to compare the history of Langkasuka and this movie you will enjoy it... why i said this well because it has been far long that we fought for whose wrong and whose right about our position (before we fight for which county is actually the Semenanjung Emas and Tanah Melayu... and even wikipedia confuse about the center of Langkasuka which is kedah or pattani... so.. enjoy it)... owh one more... i wish that the Prince of pahang speak Malay rather than thai... it will be much exciting- just like how we like PGL bring us around Asia. owh i love their Malay costume... eye catching

Plot written taken from wiki:

Queen Hijau of Pattani faces overthrow by the rebel Prince Rawai, who is allied with pirate captain Black Raven. The pirates attempt to capture some giant cannon invented by Dutchman Janis Bree and Chinese inventor Lim Kium, but the Dutch ship carrying the cannon blows up and the cannons sink into the sea.

Meanwhile, an orphan sea gypsy boy named Pari is raised in a fishing village, which is constantly under attack by Black Raven's raiding parties. The boy, gifted in the magical art of Du Lum, is taken by his uncle Anjar to learn more of the magical ways of the ocean from White Ray, but the sage refuses to teach the boy. Nonetheless, Pari is soon communicating with the marine life. He grows into manhood and becomes a fighter against Black Raven's pirates.

Black Raven, also a practitioner in the Du Lum ocean magical arts, has been trying to raise the cannons from the depths of the sea.

Queen Hijau wants her own large cannons and seeks the inventor Lim Kium, who has been living in the sea gypsy fishing village. She sends away her daughters, Princess Ungu and Princess Biru. They will be under the protection of the queen's loyal commander, the fierce martial artist Lord Jarang.

At the fishing village, Lord Jarang comes under attack. Pari aids Jarang in fighting off the pirates, and Jarang makes his escape. In the confusion, Princess Ungu is believed to have been killed, but she has actually been rescued by Pari and taken to White Ray's remote island.

There, a romance develops between Ungu and Pari, but neither are able to commit. Ungu is due to marry the Prince of Pahang, an important ally of Langkasuka. And Pari is still tortured by the death of his childhood sweetheart at the hands of Black Raven's men.

In a cave on the island, Pari encounters Black Ray, an evil, unstable alter ego of White Ray, and Pari begins to learn more about Du Lum and the conflict between the black and white sides of the practice.

Eventually, all the forces - the rebel prince, the pirates, the ocean sorcerers, the queen and the princesses - will battle for the big cannon.

Queens of Langasuka was adapted by Win Lyovarin into the novel Bunga Pari (Thai: บุหงาปารี)



2. Love Phobia (도마뱀-Domabaem)
Love phobia tells a story about Ari a lovely girl who acquire AIDS thru blood transfusion and she claims she has a curse that whoever touches her something bad will happen to the person... but there was this boy who isn't afraid of her ..... she met once in elementary school. after an event she disappears and suddenly show up again in middle school and again she disappears.....

interesting love story to watch

Went 4 shopping with my mum today... bought macam macam am happy for my new lunch box and tamagoyaki frying pan haha......

the box actually came with the bag...and you can see the aluminium interior... i love it because it is my hope to get warm lunch instead of freezing cold lunch....

one of the container actually ada divider... wohooo... am so happy... but i think my mum sedih because i got my dream bento box..... she just bought me new one last week...... i love that one too... i told her i will still use that one since sometime i cook only ayam halia and warm rice for lunch.....

actually i hate to talk about the stall exist around my work place... expensive but tasteless meal :( i rather cook at 5.30 am ......

After askin' around with the "soon to be mommy" around me.... spot bleeding is normal after all from week 7 to week 10++.... feuhhhhh well i just have to convince her it is normal.... for those people who confuse what am i talking about... am talking about bleeding spot while you preggie....

according to the doctor I talk to, if it was light red, brown then there is no problem..... and even sometime you can have your period while you preggie.... but it is advised for people who had this syndrome to check your HCG level.... and consult doctor...

RULES AND REGULATION : Letakkan gambar sewaktu kecil anda(Attach together your picture). Adalah baik sekiranya anda menulis 15 perkara yang orang tak tau semasa kecil anda(with 15 things that people didn't know about you when you were little). Di hujung entry, anda harus memilih 5 orang untuk ditag(at the end of the post tag 5 peeps to do this too). Anda amat bertuah jika ditag oleh saya sebab saya ingin tahu lebih lanjut tentang zaman comel anda dulu.. p.s thanks kepada Pn Jujah for tagging me... :P jahat dengki malu tau

1. I was raised by my 3rd Brother (so some of his ideology, what ever his logy influence me, i think he still suffer painful memory growing me up-sorry Bro but I love you)



2. Am always my daddy little girl

3. owh i never stop crying.... do not i repeat do not detach me from my 3rd brother and my dad



4. Always ruin my dad painting.... but am just the follower....


5. always look up to my mum although i know she's lied..... (yes in this picture she said my dad will be back soon.... and my dad is in the UTC+8 to +10.5 time zone)


6. i don't drink other than milk and "Air juk je" basically basic H20


7. Owh i wave to every single plane pass by .... and hoping that my dad will see me .....

8. not exactly approachable but you can try with cats....

9. i was force to celebrate my birthday together with my 4th Brother every single year FGS but but but i want my own party


10. at age 3 i only wear baju kurung

11. i tot i help my mum with house chores but she said i never do


12. manage to ruin my dad typewriter from carbon to electric


13. !'m Fat...well until now

14. I use to hate my 4th brother so much because i was force to share alot of things but whenever he cries i cried too... or sick.... or fall... or...


15. People mistook me as my 4th brother elder sister because of my size



5 peeps i tag:
1. Doria
2. Nurul-ul
3. Faisza
4. Ayu Shamsi
5. Princess Aida- SMC/UTHM

p.s If you reading this from facebook you should view from original post.... 15 laughable picture for you guys...aww


p.s Enough with tag please penat tau nak siasat diri sendiri :P

Alamak hi really there is no body from mimos and apgrid (recive 1 email:unless i was in the UPM trainee team they will entertain my question and receive another email with completely understandable ... what you saying again?) able to answer my question.....
all the post on the web is just to show off is it......

damn .... thanks to my rotten body... now from normal cough i just acquire another batch of fever.... thanks to En.Ayah ... u did this.. dah lah gastrik since morning.... no i just keep complaining because i was force to consume extra pills .... he gave me this energy pills but i still weak as the day i just got out of hospital... so okay i think am incurable... not within this month... he and my eldest brother keep telling it has always been my job that do this to be but... man am restless.... i sleep early everyday but i still weak the next day... so any suggestion

vent....
7 weeks
pills? sick of it...
body?rotten
work? aha... yup work
home? got a call what banjir?
study? no chance
quit? long sigh...
no....
removed? nope
so as always ..what year is this?

it takes me a while to congest the news....Yes, the great Director who touch Malaysians in different way and perspective left us last Saturday 11.25pm.....
while the Family and friend grief for their lost i hate to read some bloggers (and commenter's) commented on her, use a curse words on her gawd give some respect man!.....

i think her movie never was controversial(Yup Malaysia authorities you guys out of you mind... stupid movie like Rempit... and what the so called Malaysian too fast and furious....or that bohsia movie passed for what again - even half naked Muslim actress was there yuuhooo... ring bells? ) ... besides parents should watch it... it was pick from the real event in Malaysians youth community (Yes mom and dad, that what actually happen around us) and what yet the best is she uses the softest way to enlighten us and remind us what we should have been doing.

her advertisement never fail to portray muhibbah-ness.

i prayed for her to Rest really in peace... and

those people who acquire PHD from their blood should just shut up and try and learn to portray yourself and your religion wisely... stop making people think otherwise about our religion just because of your own anxiety and stupidity...

so woohooo this going to be a back fire post... but since my two closest friend is pregnant so am sharing few things to do

For Muslimah's

Read

1. Sura Ya-seen
2. Sura Yusof(Joseph) (It's advice to read Surah Yusof to get a Soleh, perfect and beautiful child)
3. Sura Luqman (to get a Bright blissful child which follow your path and obedient, the child will observe and understands its surrounding)
4. Sura Maryam(Mary) (for you-labor and to get you child to be patient and obedient)
5. Sura Al-Ikhlas(Purity of Faith, The Fidelity)

also suggested to read

1. al-Fatiha(The opening), Al-Baqara (The Heifer, The Calf),Ayatul Kursi (verse 225 of Al-Baqara (The Heifer, The Calf))
- to protect your child from bad vibes
2. At-Tawba (The Repentance)

Disclaimer: how ever Read the whole Quran is the best things to do lah but the Sura stated above is the chosen one.... so there....
p.s okay some of old Malay archipelago petua can't be use well as we know before Islam came to AP most of d ppl were Hindu ... we don't want to listen to things that will back fired us... old folk mostly put up this pantang larang just to protect us but never the less they made it up as they don't know how to explain... we much brighter now so do what we know the best ...

so what's the do and don't

Do:
1. listen to classical music like Mozart... scientifically proven the song improve the child brain development
2. Growing evidence suggests a link between gum disease and premature, underweight births. Pregnant women who have gum disease may be more likely to have a baby that is born too early and too small. [Taken from Colgate]

donts:

1. drink caffeinated drinks and pineapple as this will slowdown baby development and worst abort.
2. stop what you doing now

p.s so i don't have that many do and donts but i believe no pantang so there....

btw... just do you normal activities and don't stop exercising or walking as walking and exercising will help you to deliver the baby easily so ... end of odd post....

Black dress with the tights underneath,
I got the breath of the last cigarette on my teeth,
And shes an actress (actress),
But she ain't got no need.
Shes got money from her parents in a trust fund back east.
T-t-t-tongues always pressed to your cheeks,
While my tongue is on the inside of some other girls teeth,
T-tell your boyfriend if he says hes got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of him.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me.

X's on the back of your hands,
Wash them in the bathroom to drink like the bands.
And your setlist (setlist),
You stole off the stage,
Had red and purple lipstick all over the page.
B-b-b-bruises cover your arms,
Shaking in the fingers with the bottle in your palm.
And the best is (best is),
No one knows who you are,
Just another girl alone at the bar.

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me.

Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.
I said, Shush girl shut your lips,
Do the Hellen Keller and talk with your hips.

Woah, woah, woah...

She wants to touch me (Woah),
She wants to love me (Woah),
She'll never leave me (Woah, woah, oh, oh),
Don't trust a ho,
Never trust a ho,
Won't trust a ho,
Won't trust me

something to chill with:

Yup not that odd story for me since in previous few years my red blood count is so low (no you idiot lukemia is white blood... ok sorry am so harsh)... anyway thank Gawd it is not because of my blood count totally.. but am quite annoyed they(the doc) keep asking about my manstrual cycle which is just fine... but aih suddenly i felt a bit of delay this month owh crap..... i rarely exprience delay so it a crap. so i going down with 39.5 fever.... escorted to ER by En. Doktor and admitted to the hospital
so here is the picture. my IV first needle of the day. and i was push to the ward(Ward 4 to be exact) and choose a room with completely nobody... i choose that cubicle but everyone say "eh! kesiannya you other cubicle got empty space for you .Do you want to change?"... i said "no! i want to be here" so i dont care....

the first night i keep staring at the ceiling my dad once told me the roof is kinda nice(on the last few days of his life) keep asking my dad thou which part was it again he think it is nice....
owh i was hospitalize because of my fever spike and my acute tonsilitis level 2 thingy.....
the doctor made a joke on me... he said "you know what normally my patient will get tonsilitis because of bacteria infection guess what yours are viral infection... dont worry we listed down the worst possible condition you might go thru and viral infection that you might acquire... so don't worry".... the doctor keep reminds me "please! do not get anymore fever"... it was weird aha i will ask the fever to move their ass from mine so.... ok
this is only 3 days record of my fever they got scare on my 4th day my tempreture spike too 39.9 and ask me to sit in the shower to keep it down so it wont effect my brain and nerve so they say i stay in the toilet sampai tak boleh tahan it was crazy in there. and there was this intern doctor specialize in ENT he come to me and ask "can i see your tonsilitis"... i say "hell no" with a smile and he smile... "owh thats bad, but dont worry the last famous person died with tonsilitis is George Washington so that is so long time ago"... and he keep bringing his doc friend to see my tonsilitis and most of the time the conversation when to far.... they say i dont look like i in pain... i say yup they painkilled me everyday but swallow is still painful thou... it was fun talking to them


on my 4th day i got my self a neighbour... just across my bed.
and the list of medication that i recieve everyday thanks god its all in jab form not consume form.....
my brother visit me and well the person who drank the strawberry f&n and soya bean drink get me into trouble with my doktor pakar... with a high pitch tone... "you shouldn't have taken any carbonated drink if you still wants it remove all the gases"..... due to my sudden cough on day 5... hooorayyyy now i have to consume cough syrup....(Thanks to En yang tinggalkan those bottle on my table)

so i was on this soft diet "strickly no hot, spicy and hard food for her" my doctor tell the staf nurse... this one is blended porrige and carrot
this one is nicer ... blended porrige carrot and celery...

blended porrige, carrot, flat parsley and celery

they start to gave me normal porrige and the sides... i cant swallow for god sake i ask them if there is no tonsilitis diet for me just gave me fruit instead... sometimes the staf nurse forget to order from kitchen at the end they gave me normal porrige and food i am not choosy but i need food that i can swallow easily.....

it was awful experience with the food i just pray i might get club sandwich from holiday villa but it was just a dream thou
at first it was stated just acute tonsilitis

and add level 2
then there was level 3

then i was happy they say i can be discharge today ... well it was few days ago i only abit stable today to write this.... woohooo so i pack my bag got my bill from counter they say i cant get my mc if i didnt pay so i go G level guess what the payment counter is close. i got panick i wanted to go upstair but the stupid pak guard wont allowed me.... i called someone tell him my situation about the mc and all and there i was back in the ward...... the nurse by the name HALUYAH yes HALUYAH.... which is ugly witch a nurse with bad attitude bad mouth me... "kenapa awak mengadu pada KKM... kalau awak nak MC awak ni amik... saya tak kata tak boleh" ... and there she was feeling so degraded althou she was the one who tell me i cant get my MC and warding confirmation letter if i didnt pay and i ask even pak guard is there any other counter i can pay my bill.... i felt really humiliate by the nurse, itimidated, she was screaming at my face and tell me how rude i am to report to KKM and the person i called punya pandai threat that he will report to pengarah hospital batu pahat if she didnt release my MC so there... i was confuse running here and there asking about how to pay my bill , got a call that my MC is settled and i may pick it up at the ward counter just to find my self being humiliate.... and she continue "kita tidak layan org yang ada pangkat ke, ada line KKM lebih dari org biasa".... the only things i say..... "Ok fine, saya minta maaf memang salah saya, lagi pun kalau saya nak special treatment saya dah bawak GL saya ke sini okay... lagi satu saya cuma bagi tau 'En. Dr' masalah yang saya hadapi berurusan dengan kaunter ini dengan harapan saya dapat jawapan cara untuk mengatasinya".... she keep bising bising.... and i say "okay, Gawd... relax la saya dah minta maaf nak panjang kan kes ni ke"... i was so piss with what she said about i am using my status... hello kalau bukan pasal my connection with KKM i tak hingin (INGIN) masuk hospital ni lah... Batu Pahat hospital.... I was not surprise the Pengarah hospital got a very bad review with the rate of H1N1 increasing and the bad attitude of the nurse... others is okay only 2 of the nurse in ward 4 is with super bad attitude....they should have review this besides the ward 3 Dr Sarathi and Faris should go away too..... or ask them to marry each other... sometimes married people change attitude from worst to okay after married... i bet the Nurse by the name Haluya is not married, can tell by her not good looking and small body.... so trauma i promise my self i go with what i used to next time... doesnt meant i work with government i should go there as well go to hell with MC from gov hospital only..... that is my first trauma and my second trauma from this is: flexicam from my nose to throat... 2 kaLI OK.... and my 3rd trauma....i was force to change to their cloth which give me rash and thanks for that i need allergic pills pulak......

Dead am so dead i didnt even realize it.. my mc is 15 days (well plus the 3 days extra which end today and i still sick) what 15 days no way! and why the hell they ECG( Electro Cardio Gram) me haha i was surprise it was that long .....15days.. man !

Just to share some picture of him.... well i do felt it because i grew up with his song. i think everyone was surprise. Cardiac arrest by his age 50. Micheal Jackson will stay in our heart.....

p.s am surprise how fast wikipedia update his profile and really i don't mind hearing his voice the whole day. still like his song and passion. Prayers are for the whole Jackson Family especially the kids....

wohooo mingling with 2 preggy woman make me had a hard time. Mana Tidaknya the two preggy woman was talking about alot of thing and yet they transfer to me their crave towards thing .... especially Puan Nurul... Puan jujah so far no craving yet... duh...

so after so long Puan Nurul Bully me with her Big apple Post i can't help my self. so I ask my Doctor to drive me there.... geh geh geh Thanks En Doktor because layan my sudden crave for big apple
So we pick some for Ibu as well but can't remember.

These few days change my perception here and there but the most after reading their experience from their blog. the only thing i scared about pregnancy is when the part "nurturing" comes. aiiiyahhh scary....
Macammana pon I pray for their well being......

Disclaimer: Twist of Fate is alish's own mix/recipe

Alish's Mocktail: Twist of Fate
60ml Ginger Ale
30ml Cranberry juice
30ml Red Grape juice
half of lime (1/4 for bathing the glass 1/4 for garnish)

Glass Preparation:
1. squeeze lime to the glass ring/mouth
2. cover the class ring/mouth with a mixture of white sugar with salt
3. Chill Glass in freezer fill with ice

Drink preparation
1. place the 1/4 lime inside the glass
2. slowly pour in Ginger ale
3. pour in both grape and raspberry juice

Don't stir serve immediately.....

lunch box some call it lunch pail or lunch kit or the fancy well known Bento and i call it Food from Heaven.

a simple red and green apple + good grade fragrance rice with Sambal tumis bilis sit side by side with sunny side egg beats all the foods here in my place. while waiting for lunch hour i can't hold my self together. Once open the container it releases the mouth watering smell. may be simple side dish for you guys but the level of satisfaction complete my day





the best part of all this it reminds me of my dad.... each day for several month Walid(dad) and Ibu(Mom) came to my school bring me my lunch box. back then it is quite embarrassing to have parents come over everyday and bring you things to eat and waits until you finish and only then they leave..... but am happy they did that ... i don't remember talking to my dad that long but his action and treats still fresh in my head.

i promise to my self i will make sure my children will bring their lunch from home until they say stop i hate it and it is embarrassing so... there...... schedule for western, Asian and eastern delicacies....

aiyah sudden crave for sanma takikomi gohan

while listening to hits.fm morning crew convincing everybody it is Friday and i had a minor headache OTW to work... sigh ... feel really really slow today.... not because of Monday it is more because of my head and perception towards the new environment which totally different from my soul...

what make it worst that i receive a msg and asking for my finance account number with a note : Am clearing it off this month.... aiyah.. now it make things much more heavier.... i hope it will not be a regretful step.... instead of feeling ease it turn to responsible....

Feels like I spent all this time talking to walls
Feels like I gotta let go of the way it was before
Are your really there? Are you made of stone?
Am I talking to someone or am I here all alone

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Seems like you're stuck in a daze, slipping away, away
I'm sick of trying to reach you, can't you say what's on your mind
Baby we're losing the race to far behind, behind
Tell me that I'm not the only one who can try, who can fight the wall

[Chorus]
Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Sometimes the words they don't get through
What really speaks is what you do
Open up, let me inside, just wanna find you

[Chorus]
Are you alive, are you, are you?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't your feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive, show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Whoa, wake up, are you dead?