Friday, December 17, 2010

Whining biatch

Okay i admit whining is my nature.. but first of all i felt really agitated by this one 'friend' well , you just have to understand one thing.. ya okay, we good at being crazy the whole time.. but cant you notice? people stop sharing personal things with you? just because you tend to tell others about it.... okay so you said you don't care (like in those small notes for me) and you have tons of friend and what you did is when you with us... you start talking about others personal stuff ...where i suppose only your shrew know about it.... not us... but after few event where people are surprise to know that now everybody know about things that are suppose to be between the mates and... happen to be you are the only 'outsiders-not so thou'.... and obviously... we are human.... we suppose to say it was you besides can it be other coincident only when you are around things aren't secret anymore.... so you loud... and i don't hate you.... just that i trust people so much i just tell everything to everybody i trust..... and i talk too much especially wrong situation, occasion and timing.. so i decide each time i met somebody like you i just shut it... it is better for me to keep quiet ... if you miss understood me as i don't want to be your friend or i pushed you away its okay.... for me i will only be loud if the thing is not important and aren't personal with you.. other than that.. ehem... yup am a silent biatch ... so SORRY okay.. mistook me all you want...

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okay so i tell Defy 1/4 of what do i think about our long distant and pretty confuse relationship... yup thanks to me! now it is more difficult than yesterday.... arghhh what have i done.... owh i shouldn't have .. dammit... huh pray harder, pray harder... Ya ALLAH give me light give me strength please please please.... tak puas pening kerja, relationship pun nak kusut gak.. dammit.. i think i am lucky that defy dont even bother to read my status update.. buzz or blogs... kalau tak mesti saat ni dah call .. tanya kenapa.. adeh.... never imagine it is this difficult to convey it.. haih... whatlah alish by this time kawan kawan ko sibuk dengan anak ko baru sibuk nak memilih ke.. yup i gave my self 5 more years to settle down.. lepas tu give up for real.. yup 5 years starting yesterday... 10muharram senang nak kira...

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