Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Confuse

Was busy today.... almost 10 students call me today.. yang paling best session Zaini pun call =.="' rupanya salah info... huhu

he called today. agaknya tak puas dia sakitkan aku... funny how did i put myself there dulu.... how can i stand him....

pelik.. lepas ugut...tu ni tu ni + blame blame blame.... at the end he still said i am going to get you.... ape sebenarnya masalah dia... tak habis habis peningkan kepala....tak penat ke... apa yg dia dapat buat aku macam ni.. because i felt pretty much confuse...

while Defy.. his problem was like urgh messing with his emotional state... actually am okay with he being truthful to his feeling and frustration ... just that i need him today for my problem... seems like this 6 years... 6/7 of my problem cuma aku je yang tau... 1/7 tu sikit dia ni tau sikit yang dia tu tau, sikit defy tau... yg lain kadang kadang aku pejam je mata... i don't run.. just that the loop was endless... tak pe lah.... nak buat mcm mana... terpaksa juga lalu jalan ni..... aku boleh patah balik untuk tengok je apa yang aku lalu.... i just have to walk straight and hopefully there will be the light am waiting for all this whle... kalau tak dapat 7/7, 3/7 okay gak.

the only thing i know.. it is true thou.. i always bright for wrong reason and failed for things that important.

on the other note: don't worry i keep my faith, believe and hope always in server up state...

kesian my friend today she call and vent her problem. i keep asking her to pray harder went she attend her sunday services, i am sure she will survive her problem.. i wish i can be like her... more aggressive on one side. maybe she should follow me instead, just be patient.... because they need space too.. i meant those guys... i do mind not to contact but max is two dayslah so far... long distance nothing much can be done...

seems like all of us yang tak kawin lagi ni semuanya long distance... tak skype, msn, tak msn, sms, tak sms, idd, tak idd, tak tau lah nak respond apa.... for me jodoh.. hurm that question is not in my todo list now.... i am all behind in much more important part... surviving :D

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