Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Feeds + mindset

Kadang kadang rasa berdosalah nampak feeds kat fb..... i read about "owh dulu banyak gossip, tapi sekarang semua dah matang...." funny came from the same person who come around last month and talking about our ex-college-mate.... weird

lets face even people think i didn't chance... but i know i can't chance in only one matter.. that is protective instinct..... its all about logic... but to others they put me in catogory which is childish. ahaks i take that as AWET MUDA... bawhahahaha....*humming* pandanglah lihatlah tiru macam sayaaaaaaaaaaaa....

the only person i consistantly tell her about what i feel about her is Doria, after few session i think that i am just going to hurt her.. it is up to her whether she wanted to do something about it.. and i've learn... i have to live with it or lost a great friend... so i stop and still trying very hard not to give any input if possible ..... Am sorry bur our friendship is much valuable....

i dont exactly mengumpat but end i sat in the same table and at the end looks like i was the worst from the worst.... i can get over that because i knew they who keep saying about now we all married have our own children talk or decide exactly the same 8-12 years ago.

i still see eyes rolls over, i still see whisper after everybody went to separate cars..... i laugh badly and i realize.. they hardly chance every bits of that 6-12 year...

Funny last weekend i kenakan two people that i know had crush on each other since 8 years ago... amazing how heart can be so deceiving thou they know they interested with each other but they just didnt realize it and finally last night... one of them text me and what a progress... congratssss... am so happy..... 8 years... woah..... i will pray for you guys especially he was my best friend before even yesterday morning... but i wont address that anymore... for me the only best friend left we should have after getting tied up is your BF/Fiancee/Husband.....in short companion

owh talking about love... i am so jealous with Vanida Imran.. i watch ceramah in oasis just now... her husband is just adorable, caring and romantic.... hurm peoples luck :D

what is the different anyway....

owh ya.. gossiping and kutuk-ing are more discrete..... almost secret society like... what a BS... Matangkah? Kawinkah? Berkerjayakah?
is that how people measure changes... well

then i am happily stick to chidish..... Jahat betul FB feed ni.. pepagi dah suh aku cakap benda boring macam ni....

moral of the story: Mindset can't change overnight..... and doesnt mean you can change you will change

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